Life will jerk you around.

I've learned to not take life for granted because it will continue it's status quo, for life will surprise you. Boy, does it surely surprise you. This past week I have learned that I alone live the consequences of decisions made concerning my own life - I bear the responsibility. As an adult I should not be quick to delegate my life decisions to others.

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Matthew 7:7

I was given some great advice over the weekend: "Don't be discouraged for sometimes we have to explore the negative to get positive results. If you a feel a little beat up, well...change on and grow. Life is a series of tests. Stop sulking, don't be moody. Most importantly don't complain. Ever. Try it for a week." -D.P.

 I am praying for patience, wisdom, and courage to grow. Not just for myself but for a list of people that I have committed to pray for. God definitely opened my eyes and made me realize alot. Now it's up to me. God waits for us to decide which way we want to go.
 The morning after my stupid decision that I made, I realized, after praying that I wanted only what God had for me. There is a reason why I am now living my life through him and I know that I am not a perfect christian, I make mistakes, but no matter what God is always by my side. Even when I sin (although under sinful nature there is no way we could EVER please God). When I sin I usually feel guilty, and so horrible that I beat myself up for it pretty bad, but not because it happened... but because my love of myself trumped my love of God in that moment. Sin is slavery. Christ has set me free and I try so hard to not revert back to sinful nature.

A person can not be saved by the act of praying a prayer, stopping their sin, or making Jesus the Lord of their life, a person can only me made righteous by faith in Christ alone.
"Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4 <3

Look back and thank God. Look forward and trust God. Look around and serve God. Look from within and find God. If God brings you to it, he will get you through it. He got me through this mess and like I said before it is now up to me to start making the changes. I need to be strong in the Lord, and in his mighty power! I need to put on the full armor of God, so that I can take my stand against the devil's schemes, so I can stand my ground against the powers of this dark world, and agaisnt the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realm. The Lord has fully equiped me with everything I need to stand strong in the midst of any battle I may be facing.  Thank you Lord. God has my deliverance planned. Amen!